Tuesday, August 24, 2010

My "Old" Hotmail Account...

I’ve not accessed this particular Hotmail Account since last year 2009 and was surprised to find thousands of email in my inbox. For friends who have email-ed me & wonder why I’ve never responded back to you, guess you now know the reason why – It was only recently I found my password back, so please accept my deepest & utmost apology. 

As I was sifting through all my emails one-by-one, I came across this particular one that I would like to share with all my dear readers, fans & friends… 

Here goes: (To protect their privacy… I’ve spray-red over their name & link)

And here’s the extract from her blog:

You are not forgotten my dear... Never have been. And you know I've always took you as my little sis... As a matter of fact, I do miss you - And I pray that your parents are doing great and in pink of health. Seeing how much you've grown today, and sensibly... my heart's comforted.

As for me... Life's great; as I finally get to see the rainbow at the other end which I thought will never be for a lady like me, but I was proven wrong, and it was a beautiful sight indeed. That's why today; I am eternally grateful that I was given a 2nd chance to live life all over again, and even got myself a great Mentor, and a wise & awe-inspiring Grandmentor who have the means & ability to steer my life to where he believe I should belong... And they were absolutely right.

Hence, besides writing my second book now... I'm also preparing to "face" the public, my readers, my fans, my friends, and any individuals who may need help or advice to turn their life around, or those who are in need of emotional support, through an Upclose & Personal "Live" Talk-Show; that AMDG will be organizing for me soon, in the next 3 months or earlier.

You know what's the strangest & weirdest thing anyone ever said to me in my life?

It was what my Grandmentor said to me when I was thinking of various ways to end my life back then, and so I couldn't believe a word he said to me; because I felt & believe I was the weakest & most useless being on planet earth, so how could what he said be even possible to begin with...

He said; kinda "whispered" gently; but in a very firm & strong tone... "Kasandra, Treasure Your Life Today; For Many Will Need You Tomorrow - You... Are Going To Be A Great Mentor that inspire Many Someday, Trust Me..."

And trust him I did... And I'm glad to be this new "me" today - Imagine IF I had ended my life back then, I would have missed the second best part of my life & all those wonderful people I didn't knew existed, and all those opportunities that is coming to me now... Can you imagine the level and deepness of pain & regrets I'll be having today should I've died back then; in hell? (I was told people who committed suicide can never go Heaven...) - If I've died back then, all I am will be a mere Past-Tense, and years down the road, nobody would have remembered me... And nobody will ever know WHY I would want to end my life!

Looking back now, I AM REALLY GLAD I met Mentor & Grandmentor who came into my life in-a-nick-of-time and bring hope to me that kept me alive - And with AMDG as the "vehicle" that brings me to where I wanna go and helped me soar to greater heights I never knew possible. It was hell-of-a-ride, and though the journey was rough & bumpy in the beginning, but it was challenging & filled with loads of adventures & excitements I've never experience before. Today... I can proudly say, I'm Healed!

So worry not little sis - I'm fine and I am a much happier person now than ever before... And Life's going to get better, not only just for me, but for many out there, especially (my main priority & focus now) will be towards having an upclose & personal time with all my dear & awesome readers, fans & friends who've been so sweet & supportive after reading This Is My Story...

And I sincerely hope that through this Upclose & Personal "Live" Talk-Show; I will make a difference to someone's life... Just like what my Mentor & Grandmentor did to mine. And I'm going to make it my Life-Career to help as MANY Individuals as I can; and in ANY ways I Know How To...

Credit must go to my Grandmentor for his patience, Guidance & Advice, his "secretPhilosophy (The Way Of Life & Work), and his insightful Wisdom that he has bestowed upon me these past 3 years...  (I Thank You Sir!) One thing I was taught & reminded of often; is that... "EVERY Problem No Matter How Tough It May Be, There Will Always Be A Unique Solution To It..." And he was right, as always.

Kasandra K.


Miu's Story said...

Hi Kasandra! Live life to the fullest! You have my respect and really salute to you with that courage you have. Sometimes in life we never know, that we can do more than what we are doing, until someone tells us and believe that we can. Strange isnt it? We are always self doubting when others have so much faith and believe in us. Smile always and keep looking ahead. The past is what has made you today! :)

kimiko san said...

Hello!! i've read your book. it's such a sad history in you. well, i just want to say that,i cant handle my relationship. as my boyf kept saying i'm ugly and my boobs are small. we've been tgt almost 6 months and still, he's un satisfied about me. it's kinda hurt me when he says that. he ex-gf does have a D cup boobs. and i cant stop thinking why am i like this.


Kasandra K. said...

Hi Miu,

Thank you for your respect, acknowledgement and encouragement toward me... :)

Yup, it really is strange how others seem to look at us much clearer than how we look at ourselves... On the other hand, how others look at us, is also what we ourselves unconsciously portray to the eyes of the public. Regardless, at the end of the day, the person we need to be honest and true to, is ourselves.

Without my GrandMentor guiding and enlightening me, I would not have been clear to walk a stronger and much meaningful path and become the person I am today...

Once again, thank you Miu... My best wishes to you in your future endeavours. :)

Hi Kimiko,

Thank you for leaving me this message and your support toward "This Is My Story..." :)

Reality is cruel, the truth hurts...

Just to let you know, I was ugly when I was schooling, with nerdy spectacles and my classmates used to think I was a tomboy because I loved wearing baggy jeans and T-shirts... But I learnt how to dress up, how to put on make-up and grow into the person I am today (and I do not have D-cup boobs).

Everyone has flaws. It's how we work with what we have and what we can learn to turn the flaws, flawless... Or at the very least, learn to conceal them with the good things we have. :)

Beauty on the outside fades with time, but beauty on the inside is substantial. A person who truly loves you will love you for the person you are and embrace you for the person you're not.

Confidence comes from within, Kimiko... I believe you'll be able to find that in you, if you put in the effort and look at the right places.

Should you need to talk to me, you can feel free to send me a Private message at my Facebook account ya. :)